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moodswings; bitchfits; you yell - i yell back. you throw question after question at me; and i don't have any answers. i'm tired, you're tired; we're both tired. i feel like i'm the one getting blamed for all of this, and i know that you know deep down inside that part of this is also your fault.

you won't life a finger when i'm around, yet you nag about me when i'm infront of the computer.

i guess when you are young, forever is just too long.

my bags are packed and the car is set, just need to run a few errands and i'm getting someone to drive me somewhere; don't know where to yet though. just away from here.

you need this. i need this.

it's not about changing, it's about me coming back and not having to go through the same again.

goodbye.

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Met up with a friend from my old school. She randomly messaged me on facebook asking me if I was doing anything special, if not, we could hang out. And who was I to decline? :) I've got so much time on my hands right now. I can literally sleep just as much as I want, and no need to stress or fuss over anything. We met up at ofelia beach to "watch" football; to enjoy the night atmosphere of Copenhagen. It's amazing. The weather's not too cold nor too hot. We talked about absolutely every to anything. It feels nice. To catch up with someone, finding lost time, and reminiscing old times together. It really hit me today how long it has been since the last time I spoke - like REALLY spoke with someone from my school. I bet going our separete ways really did change us in many ways. It's funny how we talk about keeping in touch when we really don't do it.

and as usual, Munin and Sabine style; we go eat mc donalds food at idek what time at night. Screw diets. I'm pigging out until the end of the month, just let me.

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Something bad happened yesterday. Someone whom I love and respect as a real sister, wanted to buy me some jewelry for my birthday. Well mainly because she forgot about it, so she wanted to compensate. However, I wasn't aware that she is in debt, struggling to find a job. But her friend came and told me that, so I quickly changed my reply and edited it out and tried to tell her that I'd rather not want her to buy me a gift because the thought is enough. However, her friend was really polite and sweet - but gurl went "does your parents know about this? why didn't they stop you?" as if I was only out to get her money. I was like, wtf? What does my parents have anything to do with it.

Then, I saw how another one of my sister's friend had typed about me in korean, warning her about me. Literally saying "foreigners shouldn't be trusted casually" and basically telling her not to trust me, but before you guys say "it could be directed at any foreigner" - my name was written too. First of all, I think it's incredibly stupid to be writing my name since I'll recognize it instantly. Second of all, I have actually been studying korean long enough to read and get a vague impression of what exactly he typed. And a friend of mine confirmed it as well.

Just because I'm not Korean like you guys are, doesn't mean that I'm some kind of disease other people need to be warned about. ugh.