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fun fact; the water was cut off at my aunt's the day before, so my cousin and i had to shower at the lake after carrying buckets of lake water to the house in case we needed some to .. you know.. the toilet. asjalfdflgjfagkafh;; it was so hilarious i couldn't stop laughing. i've never had to go through THAT much survival during a vacation before and .. i guess it's nice to try something new? but never again. do not want to smell like lake water and itch all over my body again.

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the bestfriend is back from thailand. he called and .. idk.. i just realized how much he means to me. he's the only one who's just.. really there? idk. no words are needed. we had a brief period where we didn't talk, but no words were needed when it came to forgiving each other. and yesterday, he told me how this bitch who was once a friend but she stole my boyfriend was out to get him too; and i just stiffened at the mention of her name cause yea, obviously. he reassured me many times that he'll always be by my side no matter what and i just really really started hoping again, you know? i've had the "when you don't hope you don't hurt" train of thought for long, but he keeps promosing me things he CAN keep and it just makes me want to hope again.

we decided to spend time in thailand together next year. he'll go with his family during april next year for 3 weeks, and spend the last 2 weeks of vacation with me during summer. we've decided that we stay in bangkok for one week(or possibly less, because we want to go to "let's sea" in hua hin, the hotel is gorgeous - check it out) and then he offered that we could stay at his house in udon for the last few days. it really made me happy. why? he's the first one to offer his house to crash at in terms of vacation. i've only had people stay with me, and it felt nice to know that i was welcomed at his place. i love you.

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you know how you think you're someone's close friend, yet they don't consider you close enough to share their troubles or let you help them shoulder their burdens? to me, friendship is about being in things together; helping each other through it - not keeping it to yourself or telling other mutual friends without telling me.
i mean, cool; i'm up for helping anybody any day - but heck, what's the point in helping and giving advice when they don't listen just because "you don't know it all" and don't want to tell you? either tell me everything or just tell me nothing at all. it dissapoints me to know that people around me have been knowing more than me, listening to me blindly trying to help and give advice on something they knew 100% about. guess i'm not considered a close friend after all. it didn't happen just once, it happened a few times already. idek anymore...

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moodswings; bitchfits; you yell - i yell back. you throw question after question at me; and i don't have any answers. i'm tired, you're tired; we're both tired. i feel like i'm the one getting blamed for all of this, and i know that you know deep down inside that part of this is also your fault.

you won't life a finger when i'm around, yet you nag about me when i'm infront of the computer.

i guess when you are young, forever is just too long.

my bags are packed and the car is set, just need to run a few errands and i'm getting someone to drive me somewhere; don't know where to yet though. just away from here.

you need this. i need this.

it's not about changing, it's about me coming back and not having to go through the same again.

goodbye.

『! 7』 030710

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A few days ago, my stepdad to my mother and I to a summer grill "party" with the navy-union. Although it wasn't fun in that party kinda way, I found the whole thing quite relaxing. I met a lot of my stepdads associates, and it felt nice to be introduced to a bigger part of his life like the navy-union. I met quite a few important and powerful people, and someone that I know will be the person I'd probably benefit from knowing - The director of Novo-science. Anyways, to make a long story short, she's the person in charge of making sure everything runs smoothly with their accosiates in China, so she travels down there once a month. Basically my dream job. And she doesn't even speak Chinese, but that's besides the point; it'll only be a plus for me if I continue my studies.

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1. guccisisma passport case in black.

2. rayban wayfarer sunglasses.

3. circle 2 grey contact lenses from www.circlelens2u.com.

4. geo tri color green contact lenses from www.pinkyparadise.com.

5. bobbi brown long wear gel eyeliner #01 black ink.

6. (missha) misa cho bo yang bb cream spf 30 pa++(no.2 calm beige).

7. (missha) m cover bb balm pact spf 50+/pa+++ (no. 23 natural beige)

8. new glasses.

9. blackberry bold 9700.

『! 5』 280610

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Met up with a friend from my old school. She randomly messaged me on facebook asking me if I was doing anything special, if not, we could hang out. And who was I to decline? :) I've got so much time on my hands right now. I can literally sleep just as much as I want, and no need to stress or fuss over anything. We met up at ofelia beach to "watch" football; to enjoy the night atmosphere of Copenhagen. It's amazing. The weather's not too cold nor too hot. We talked about absolutely every to anything. It feels nice. To catch up with someone, finding lost time, and reminiscing old times together. It really hit me today how long it has been since the last time I spoke - like REALLY spoke with someone from my school. I bet going our separete ways really did change us in many ways. It's funny how we talk about keeping in touch when we really don't do it.

and as usual, Munin and Sabine style; we go eat mc donalds food at idek what time at night. Screw diets. I'm pigging out until the end of the month, just let me.

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Don't you just hate last minute rainchecks on plans?

I hate that the most. I couldn't sleep last night, my insomina really kicking in this summer - woke up several times between 11am - 3pm. I thought I'd stop by the postoffice to get my package, but sleep got the better of me. Meh, I'll just get it on monday. Woke up, feeling really hungry for pretzels; but it was too late cause the bakery was probably closed. Ate broken ramen instead. Don't know what to do for the rest of the day besides having a lazy day, and the rest of my family are out shopping. Didn't go with them cause I couldn't get up. Woops.

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went to amagerbeach on the 23rd to celebrate sankt hans with some from my class. dissapeared with a few for 3 hours to find something to eat. came back to drink some alcohol and watch the "witch burning" tradition and left not long after that.

didn't realize how tired i was until i finally collapsed on my bed around 2am, and i could just feel the ache all over my body.
went to get my passport at college on the 24th, there was some kind of mistake so the duration of stay on my visa is wrong. gotta wait for updates on this.

『! 2』 210610

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Something bad happened yesterday. Someone whom I love and respect as a real sister, wanted to buy me some jewelry for my birthday. Well mainly because she forgot about it, so she wanted to compensate. However, I wasn't aware that she is in debt, struggling to find a job. But her friend came and told me that, so I quickly changed my reply and edited it out and tried to tell her that I'd rather not want her to buy me a gift because the thought is enough. However, her friend was really polite and sweet - but gurl went "does your parents know about this? why didn't they stop you?" as if I was only out to get her money. I was like, wtf? What does my parents have anything to do with it.

Then, I saw how another one of my sister's friend had typed about me in korean, warning her about me. Literally saying "foreigners shouldn't be trusted casually" and basically telling her not to trust me, but before you guys say "it could be directed at any foreigner" - my name was written too. First of all, I think it's incredibly stupid to be writing my name since I'll recognize it instantly. Second of all, I have actually been studying korean long enough to read and get a vague impression of what exactly he typed. And a friend of mine confirmed it as well.

Just because I'm not Korean like you guys are, doesn't mean that I'm some kind of disease other people need to be warned about. ugh.

『! 1』 200610

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hello hello.

this is my first time writing on this blog, i just started so it all looks a bit messy.

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